Ten.Six Hundred & Thirty-One

1. It’s their last day. The time always goes too fast.

2. A few more games of War and Speed before they go.

3. I just wish we could have had a little more time. This is the one thing about the move out west. The distance between us doubled. And while I do have dreams of us all being Californians at some point, I know that the time for it is not now. Patience.

4. He gives them each a $20 bill. She comes to me asking for a skateboard.

5. I decide I’m just going to lay in bed for the day. I am emotionally, mentally, and physically drained. The only thing I want to do is play word games on my phone.

6. But there is also so much love and encouragement.

7. He asks me if I’m questioning the purpose of life. I tell him that yes, that’s been the theme of the day.

8. I still have time.

9. Pizza and Pio Cesare Nebbiolo. A lot of water. A cold shower to end the evening.

10. I can try again. I can try again.