Ten.One Thousand, Nine Hundred & Thirty-Five

1. Just not ready.

2. She has me on the table and rubbing that medal thing across my bicep and forearm. Still so tender at the elbow. They say something about my scalenes and my subclavicals and Jones Technique.

3. What I hear is that it’s been three months, and my fingers still go numb. It’s been three months, and I still don’t have full extension.

4. It’s been too long since we’ve connected. It was so very needed.

5. I tell her that I’m so tired I just want to lay on the floor.

6. I need cacao?

7. I take my lunch outside, sit in the sun by the fountain then make my way to the olive trees.

8. Not worth it.

9. I am the last one here.

10. I can’t see the end.